~I wanted to make this as I know I haven't been active since 2021. I've been dealing with really bad mental health to the point I've had too many anxiety and panic attacks as well as a lot of nights where I couldn't sleep. I've been thinking a lot and I just wanted to make this as I wanted to make some changes. I've had DA since I was very young, I found and enjoyed things I didn't fully understand and/or saw very differently than everyone else. I even was a lot more confident and free-spirited(?) even into my teens. Ever since I had anxiety, I've realized the reality of some of the stuff I liked as a child and have been kind of scared/paranoid that this would come back to haunt me and I wouldn't be able to explain myself. I've felt like, back then, that I was in my own little world where I could do whatever made me happy, as well the stuff going on with the world I didn't know a single thing about. However, now I have some understanding which has helped me realize. I really felt